"Thank you."

First off, I am extremely sorry that I use Hiccup to express myself (I really do not like drawing myself…I hope this isn’t bothering people…)

Secondly, I just really wanted to take a moment to thank you, friends…
I have been in at an all time low lately. I have been feeling useless, worthless… like my art meant nothing to anybody, like I was a big failure, and being told that I am a failure only made it so much worse…. I just wanted to give up and end it all…
Then I looked at the messages that you wonderful, amazing people have sent me, and I cried a lot… I was, and still am, astonished and extremely humbled by the kind words that you had given me. When I felt so alone, and no one else was there, you guys were. and you have absolutely no idea how much that means to me. I have always lived my life dealing with all of my pain and suffering alone in silence, while no one was looking, I always felt like a burden when I was depressed and anxious (and have even been told that I actually was multiple times by so many friends…). It hurts to have it all bottled up, and it hurts more when you’re left alone to think about it all the time… But you, my friends, have given me a type of support I have never been given before, and I feel so unworthy of it, but I really can’t thank you enough for the kindness that you guys have given me.
I really wanted to answer each one of you guys who messaged me, but I really had no idea how to go about it. I could not express, verbally, or though art, how much I appreciate and thank every single one of you, and I am so sorry…. I wish I was just better at all… this. *waves hands around*
You are the reason why I am still here, why I am still trying. I know this may sound stupid, or cheesy, or even pitiful, but I really cannot put it any other way. Those messages have become so important to me, and I read them every day so that I may be able to gather the strength to face the days ahead of me. And I also want you all to know that, if you are ever down, I will be here for you too! 
I love you guys <3 

"Thank you."

First off, I am extremely sorry that I use Hiccup to express myself (I really do not like drawing myself…I hope this isn’t bothering people…)

Secondly, I just really wanted to take a moment to thank you, friends…

I have been in at an all time low lately. I have been feeling useless, worthless… like my art meant nothing to anybody, like I was a big failure, and being told that I am a failure only made it so much worse…. I just wanted to give up and end it all…

Then I looked at the messages that you wonderful, amazing people have sent me, and I cried a lot… I was, and still am, astonished and extremely humbled by the kind words that you had given me. When I felt so alone, and no one else was there, you guys were. and you have absolutely no idea how much that means to me. I have always lived my life dealing with all of my pain and suffering alone in silence, while no one was looking, I always felt like a burden when I was depressed and anxious (and have even been told that I actually was multiple times by so many friends…). It hurts to have it all bottled up, and it hurts more when you’re left alone to think about it all the time… But you, my friends, have given me a type of support I have never been given before, and I feel so unworthy of it, but I really can’t thank you enough for the kindness that you guys have given me.

I really wanted to answer each one of you guys who messaged me, but I really had no idea how to go about it. I could not express, verbally, or though art, how much I appreciate and thank every single one of you, and I am so sorry…. I wish I was just better at all… this. *waves hands around*

You are the reason why I am still here, why I am still trying. I know this may sound stupid, or cheesy, or even pitiful, but I really cannot put it any other way. Those messages have become so important to me, and I read them every day so that I may be able to gather the strength to face the days ahead of me. And I also want you all to know that, if you are ever down, I will be here for you too! 

I love you guys <3 

fallenzephyrart
fallenzephyrart:

If 18 or 20 palettes wasn’t enough, I present to you: my 100 Palette Challenge! This is a collection of some of my favourite palettes from color-palettes and Adobe Kuler and I thought it would be really fun to have a huge variety of palettes to chose from
If you would like to participate in this challenge, I ask that you DO NOT repost this anywhere else, including deviantART; please REBLOG this instead! I have the challenge uploaded to deviantART as well, so please check it out there if you want to do it on deviantART!
Here’s some of the drawings I’ve done with a few of these palettes c:

I’m still up for taking color palette requests(and I am working on ones that I have already gotten), but I also want to try out a different chart of colors, and the colors on this one look really appealing to me! So shoot away friends!

fallenzephyrart:

If 18 or 20 palettes wasn’t enough, I present to you: my 100 Palette Challenge! This is a collection of some of my favourite palettes from color-palettes and Adobe Kuler and I thought it would be really fun to have a huge variety of palettes to chose from

If you would like to participate in this challenge, I ask that you DO NOT repost this anywhere else, including deviantART; please REBLOG this instead! I have the challenge uploaded to deviantART as well, so please check it out there if you want to do it on deviantART!

Here’s some of the drawings I’ve done with a few of these palettes c:

I’m still up for taking color palette requests(and I am working on ones that I have already gotten), but I also want to try out a different chart of colors, and the colors on this one look really appealing to me! So shoot away friends!

"I know what it&#8217;s like to lose someone this time of the year&#8230;."
Excuse my horrible attempt at typing this out to make any sense(also httyd2spoilers)&#8230; 
Much like Hiccup, 7 years ago, I experienced the feeling of having a completed family and then losing it.  My older half-brother from my dad&#8217;s previous marriage had come into our home after over 10+ years of my father not seeing him, and for the first time, our family felt more whole. I had never seen my father so happy in his life. my older half-brother stayed with us for 3 years. 
Then he went back to stay at the abusive household that he escaped from to look after his sister, who had a child. We still kept in touch with him.
A year later, the phone call came&#8230;.
&#8212;
When I saw the scene in the movie, it brought me back to that time, where you think the world around you is finally going right, but before you know it, life takes a sudden turn that you thought it would never take. Seeing that kind of moment in this movie was something that really hit home for me&#8230; it was able to understand and capture how I felt, and that is something I really appreciate&#8230;..

Rest in Peace, Daniel&#8230;.. we miss you&#8230;. 
~7/27/07~

"I know what it’s like to lose someone this time of the year…."

Excuse my horrible attempt at typing this out to make any sense(also httyd2spoilers)… 

Much like Hiccup, 7 years ago, I experienced the feeling of having a completed family and then losing it.  My older half-brother from my dad’s previous marriage had come into our home after over 10+ years of my father not seeing him, and for the first time, our family felt more whole. I had never seen my father so happy in his life. my older half-brother stayed with us for 3 years. 

Then he went back to stay at the abusive household that he escaped from to look after his sister, who had a child. We still kept in touch with him.

A year later, the phone call came….

When I saw the scene in the movie, it brought me back to that time, where you think the world around you is finally going right, but before you know it, life takes a sudden turn that you thought it would never take. Seeing that kind of moment in this movie was something that really hit home for me… it was able to understand and capture how I felt, and that is something I really appreciate…..

Rest in Peace, Daniel….. we miss you…. 

~7/27/07~

Ah&#8212;aaahhhh I&#8217;m so sorry guys! I&#8217;m running back and fourth trying to get everything done at once and it&#8217;s not really turning out the way I had planned it&#8230;. heehh&#8230;.  I hope to get back on track as soon as I can! 

Also I am still in the process of answering my inbox! You guys said very nice things and I wanna find the time to answer back in a very proper manner! I love you all!

Ah—aaahhhh I’m so sorry guys! I’m running back and fourth trying to get everything done at once and it’s not really turning out the way I had planned it…. heehh…. I hope to get back on track as soon as I can!

Also I am still in the process of answering my inbox! You guys said very nice things and I wanna find the time to answer back in a very proper manner! I love you all!