First off, I am extremely sorry that I use Hiccup to express myself (I really do not like drawing myself…I hope this isn’t bothering people…)
Secondly, I just really wanted to take a moment to thank you, friends…
I have been in at an all time low lately. I have been feeling useless, worthless… like my art meant nothing to anybody, like I was a big failure, and being told that I am a failure only made it so much worse…. I just wanted to give up and end it all…
Then I looked at the messages that you wonderful, amazing people have sent me, and I cried a lot… I was, and still am, astonished and extremely humbled by the kind words that you had given me. When I felt so alone, and no one else was there, you guys were. and you have absolutely no idea how much that means to me. I have always lived my life dealing with all of my pain and suffering alone in silence, while no one was looking, I always felt like a burden when I was depressed and anxious (and have even been told that I actually was multiple times by so many friends…). It hurts to have it all bottled up, and it hurts more when you’re left alone to think about it all the time… But you, my friends, have given me a type of support I have never been given before, and I feel so unworthy of it, but I really can’t thank you enough for the kindness that you guys have given me.
I really wanted to answer each one of you guys who messaged me, but I really had no idea how to go about it. I could not express, verbally, or though art, how much I appreciate and thank every single one of you, and I am so sorry…. I wish I was just better at all… this. *waves hands around*
You are the reason why I am still here, why I am still trying. I know this may sound stupid, or cheesy, or even pitiful, but I really cannot put it any other way. Those messages have become so important to me, and I read them every day so that I may be able to gather the strength to face the days ahead of me. And I also want you all to know that, if you are ever down, I will be here for you too!
I love you guys <3